From Asking to Thanking: Discovering Security in Source
There was a time, early in my journey towards New Thought—long before Beyond Orthodoxy had a name—when I began to notice something about my own thought life.
I had become deeply aware of what I lacked. Every prayer, every meditation, and even many of my casual thoughts revolved around what wasn’t working, what hadn’t gone right, or what I didn’t yet have. I was sincere, but I was also stuck in a subtle cycle of “lack consciousness.”
I see now that my focus on what was missing was robbing the creative part of me—the divine image within—of its capacity to develop and activate what I actually desired.
At the root of all that seeking, one theme stood out: security. Emotional security. Financial security. Relational security.
It was the thread running through so many of my actions and prayers. I wanted to feel safe, stable, and assured that all was well. And yet, I was looking for that assurance outside myself—in circumstances, in people, in outcomes.
What I didn’t yet realize was that security is not a condition—it’s a consciousness.
The Turning Point
Around 2015, something began to shift in me.
I started moving from asking to thanking.
I had already asked—over and over again. I had prayed the prayers, written the affirmations, and spoken my desires aloud.
But at some point, faith requires that we stop repeating the request and begin living as if the answer has already been received. This is a foundational premise of New Thought.
This change was subtle but profound. Instead of praying from the feeling of wanting, I began to pray from the feeling of having.
I started saying “thank you” rather than “please.”
I stopped waiting for proof—and started assuming that the proof was already in transit.
The Practice of Feeling Secure
With that shift, something else awakened in me: an understanding that the feeling itself is creative.
To live securely, I had to begin feeling secure—not because the bank account said so, not because relationships were perfect, and not because life was free from uncertainty. But because I chose to inhabit the vibration of peace that comes from knowing that I am rooted in Source.
“My security cannot be in dollars. My security is not in others’ reactions or in my role within an organization. My security resides in living in, and being consciously aware that I am in, the ever-present reality of now.” (2015 Journal)
That realization, or New Thought, marked the beginning of my transition from traditional religion into what I now call Metaphysical Christianity.
It wasn’t about discarding faith—it was about expanding it.
It was no longer about a distant God being petitioned for help, but about awakening to the indwelling Presence already working within and through me.
As Joel Goldsmith wrote, prayer is not an appeal to a God “out there,” but a recognition of the Presence within.
And Charles Fillmore often reminded his students that faith is “the perceiving power of the mind linked with the power to shape substance.”
Together, their teachings revealed to me that true security is spiritual awareness expressed as peace.
The Ever-Present Reality
Looking back, I can see how patiently the Divine worked to bring me to that understanding.
Each challenge was a teacher, each delay a quiet invitation to trust the unseen order at work.
Source—Spirit, the I AM—wasn’t withholding anything from me.
He was cultivating consciousness.
He was teaching me to feel first, to live in thanksgiving rather than worry, and to rest in the knowing that the creative process unfolds from within outward.
Today, when I speak of living at the “leading edge of time and experience,” I mean exactly this: security is found in the awareness that I am never separate from the Source of my being.
As we grow beyond orthodoxy—beyond the old patterns of asking, waiting, and fearing—we begin to embody the truth that everything we seek is already in motion.
Faith becomes gratitude.
Prayer becomes presence.
Desire becomes fulfillment.
And as I wrote then, and still affirm today:
“Focus on feeling, and the rest will fall into place.”